adiemaz

last

2006-07-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

supersunday flew past just like that, and thanks alot hulin for hosting us and having all the fun. itz refreshing to see so many of us back in one place.. swimming.. sauna-ing, watching matches and bumming.. had fun. thanks alot..

then again, the weekend hadnt been as perfect as i hoped it would be.

itz definitely great to be having fun and all, but yet amidst all the fun.. itz hard not to see the way ppl have changed and started to exhibit new behaviour. some of those ive known for pretty long. and sometimes, they seemed to haf a complete change of heart, change of mind. And the subtleties of human nature is such that you will never know what their true intentions are or what is running through their heads when they behave the way they do.

but whatever the case, i guess its just pricking to know see how quickly human evolve. Ppl are no longer who they once were. i have no illusions abt that.

if theres one problem that has been plaguing mankind for ages, itz that we never seem to be able to crawl out of emotional issues.

i think itz much too tiring to like someone or just care for someone, and invest feelings into anykind of friendship, more so for those who do so in silence. i see so many of them slipping away, and somehow i cant do anything about it.. and it just hurts that you arent valued the same way you once were. but i gotta put on a facade of being non-plussed.. i jus keep doing that dont i?

ironically, after the weekend, i just told myself to place mental blocks on the people whom i used to care for.. for friends turned strangers, or those who are just slipping away. itz not that i dont care anymore. somewhere, somehow i still do care, just that itz always the ppl whom u invested the most in who will hurt the most. and the worst thing of all is, ive to act like i dont give a damn. itz tiring to do so. As i told teo, i value reciprocity, and anything for me has to be two-way.

and so, all my unexpressed feelings of appreciation would just haf to be brutally suppressed, known only to myself. many a time, i wanted to say stuff to ppl.. that wld really encapsulate my thoughts. but i guess that wld hardly matter to them right?

i dunno why i choose to do that.. but i guess this morning, on the way to school, though the lack of sleep was pervasive, i think it was with unparalled sobriety that i saw how the equation has shifted, such that ive been factored out.

ive always relied on rational thought, this has been my proudest weapon, but itz also my heaviest burden. Implicity, i perceive and rationalise the way people behave, and it is just wearing me down. how do you go about doing your own routine when the signs are so glaring that you are just..out? that ur frens haf had a change of mind?

and qt frankly, im not even in a position to worry about that. while taking stock of where i stand exactly, i realise that im not in a very good shape to be handling such issues. for one, im no longer acting from a position of strength.

i need to rid myself of distractions, which includes blogging abt what goes on in my life like anyone would be interested to know like that..

i need a hiatus. an indefinite break to get myself back onto my feet. so this is it then..

this is the long goodbye. there is nothing left to say

inexorably

2006-07-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

action speaks louder than words. itz funny how the simplest colloquial phrases can resonate so well at times.

today sucked somehow. apart from mingrens antics, the day was pretty much a black friday, coz i keep thinking over certain things in my head. sometimes, itz hard to understand the subtleties of human actions. but if theres anything that works for me, i trust my gut alot.

and today i made a revelation that for all my unquestioning allegiance, ive been blind to see that the ground has shifted beneath my feet. clearly, where i stand is not encased in rock. and definitely, loyalties have switched. and i find that im exorably moving in a direction that i do not particularly like, but ive no choice because all my life ive hated to play second fiddle. so this time will not be different.

and it was only not so long ago that ive had a few conversations that made me feel that i really do haf great people around me, or for some itz juz the knowledge that ive such fantastic beings arnd. i might haf misinterpreted actions, but the subtle undercurrents have been plain to see, at least for me to see.

loyalties haf shifted. and therefore mine must too, with it the central figure(s) in my life. not that itz been pleasant to do it, but today has been the straw that broke the camels back. sometimes the best way to safeguard oneself is to deliberately destroy bridges and enlarge the gulf.

and while im at my table writing this. i wonder if i cld be at someplace else right now. but im not meant anywhere else tonight, evidently. but the nightsky is comforting.

i will be okay. how can i not be.. when itz so much easier to put on a mask of happiness when deep inside, i dont feel good at all. but i will be fine. the stinging aftertaste of having ur trust and loyalty misplaced doesnt go gently into the night. it lingers but pretense has always been something i picked up over the years. and thus i will smile

2006-07-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

1. My uncle once said: having triplets means one of them will have to be stupid due to probability

2. Never in my life have I: felt the weight of the future, & pent-up emotions.. things ive always wanted to say but I just cant coz it just doesn’t seem right and I don’t think i can say it to him/her without destroying anything

3. The one person who can drive me nuts: conceited people or those who can look right at you and lie

4. High School is/was: Raffles Institution.. which brings back so many fond memories

5. When I'm nervous: I cant think

6. The last time I cried was: I dont cry pretty often, just that I get really down

7. If I were to get married RIGHT NOW my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: marriage is so irrelevant right now.. haha

8. My hair is: butchered

9. My feet are: warts infested. Six of them, so im scarred for life

10. When I was 5: I mutilated my sis Barbie dolls. And I found out all the legs had ball and socket joins and looked like chicken legs

11. Last Christmas: I was tossing grapes into my mouth and averaging four hits every five throws. Cool right?

12. When I turn my head left, I see: a window

13. When I turn my head right, I see: my laptop with mp3 playing

14. When I look down I see: my feet.. okay lets not talk about feet

15. The craziest recent event was: mimicking scary movie 4 in class

16. By this time next year: i want to be able to look back with no regrets

17. I have a hard time understanding: how peoples mind works, and what people actually really feel and think

18. One time at a family gathering: i turned my lil cousin upside down and shook him holding his ankles

19. You know I "like" you if: i spend time with you outside of school doing stuff, but hold back sometimes. I sometimes act like I don’t care, when I do a lot.

20. If I won an award, the first persons I'd thank is: my mom, whose been so supportive

21. Take my advice: read the poem Invictus. You are the only master of your fate

22. My ideal breakfast is: juice, bacon, eggs sunny side up

23. If you visit my hometown: please don’t.. itz freaking hot

24. Where do you plan to visit anytime soon: Italy

25. Boys are: one hell of a part of my life

26. I'd stop my wedding if: I realise im not marrying the one I love

27. The world could do without: people who are stumbling blocks to others.

28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: keep one as a pet. Believe me, I tried b4 and itz hard to do it.

29. Most recent thing you've bought yourself : new slippers

30. Most recent thing someone else bought you: souvenirs from UK from addie

31. My favorite time of day is: morning.. I get affected by the weather. so i like the day to be bright

32. My favorite store is: sports stores, or juz stores that can window shop. Someday.. I wanna own my very own suit from e. zegna

33. My favorite ringtone is: nothing too loud

34. And by the way, please hold on: I needed change a music track

35. The last time I was high: when I watched SM 4

36. The person whom I last talked to told me to: rui, for telling him to stop talking rubbish when he started yakking abt his funeral

37. I shouldnt have been: watching too many live scores.. itz depressing when venus died.

38. Last night: I was having a quiet night by myself

39. Theres this girl I know who: can hit flat groundstrokes and NOT grunt

40. There is this guy I know who: can be really cute but doesnt act that way usually

41. A better name for me would be: WEI. Short and sweet. Okay not sweet but itz still short.

42. If I ever go back to school I'll: clobber some eyesores

43. My birthday is: 24th March. Which is eons ago.

third of july

2006-07-03T15:30:00.000+08:00

the past week has been filled with alot of sporting news.. happy news in fact =)

first of all.. rafael nadal is still into the second week of wimbledon. which is kinda unbelievable, but itz good news anyway. France beat Brazil! which is another surprise. and Michael Schumacher juz led ferrari into a 1-2 finish at indianapolis. and of course annika sorenstam shd probably win the US Open.

but of course.. here comes the cruncher: Super Sunday in 6 days. wimbledon finals and wc finals.. hoping it wld be federer-nadal and germany-france. haha.. we will see. but definitely not germany-portugal >.<

and of course, last night was just entertaining. teo can be pretty amusing. talked alot of stuff. and of course.. i had to revisit a previous mark. 7.2 now from 5.5.. thats damn good. teo shd be a happy boi. oh..and dont 4get, if all else fails, i get to spread what i said i wld okay?

my legs are dead

2006-07-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

milk run 2006 today had a massive turnout. rui and i met addie at the clarke quay station to go to the zouk carpark which was the assembly point. the place was hidden behind the grand copthorne so it was pretty hard to see. thankfully a nice lady gave us a ride there.

we arrived early so we went to the grand copthorne arcade to sit down and chat while we waited for a call to tell us where to collect our number plates and go to the baggage point. so we juz talked and talked till it got pretty late. so we called the person instead, and to our horrors, the mens competitive run already flagged off. but addie was still in time for the womens competitive. so she had to go off while rui and i went for the community run, where half the world joins in. but that race was already flagging off soon, so we juz scrambled to collect new number plates and ran to the start line.

it was a shitload of people out there. but we started somewhere in the middle of the pack. haha.. saw yiiwen and may there. but they were like so far beside us that all we cld do was wave.

they finally got it started and we juz ran through the clarke quay and all. it was pretty cool to see a part along the river that i diden get to see. i thot the race was pretty well set up, all along the route there were water points. though i diden enjoy the tunnel run. i felt claustrophic for some weird reason. the sudden change from bright sunlight to dimness juz had me running blind for a while. so juz chionged through into the light again.

man.. the sun was pretty hot but managed to finish the run within the top 10. but it was non-competitive.. so no prizes for that. and guess what.. addie came in third in the womens competitive!! cool right. haha.. the top prize for the lucky draw was a motorola v3x.. so guess the 3rd prize for race wldnt be too bad. 3rd position.. now thats something =)

thot that the race went pretty well.. juz that we diden get the run we were supposed to get. the lady i/c felt pretty bad.. coz she said rui and i came in pretty fast but too bad we werent in the mens competitive. but oh well.. it felt good to run.

after that.. refreshements were at zouk. but we skipped that and went to heeren for dinner. after that juz went window shopping.. and right now my legs are dead tired. the swimming-tennis-running combination is more draining than i had thought... so no exercise tmr. itz time to rest my legs.

and anw.. thanks for the left-handed knight in amour and malt whiskey fudge, addie! theyre great

cts are over!

2006-07-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

cts are finally over, and guess ive been doing the things i pretty much wanted to do.. such as watching tv and exercising. its funny how i can be so excited over the end of cts, but when the day finally comes.. it just gets greeted with a flat acceptance.

but yesterday and today haf been pretty much physical. yesterday i went to swim, and coincidentally, daphne and i were on the same train again. haha.. talk abt coincidence.

so today i went to aloys place for morning tennis, along with the tennis kakis.. like hulin, reuben and rui. man its great to start hitting balls again. though the most spectacular shot of the day still came from aloysius, who killed off a point by reeling of a half-volley from a difficult angle. haha.. i was sitting out in that set, but the ball juz clipped the sidelines and spun away.. no wonder they say still waters run deep.

after that we had lunch at the cafeteria b4 heading upstairs. played mahjong, and everyone won once, except rui who won twice. so guess itz fair. and we found a real porno book in aloys bookcase. itz karma sutra or sth. french version.. with graphic displays. makes for a good read for aspiring practicers of the art of stimulation.

speaking of which.. i juz watched scary movie 4. itz damn funny, but theres totally no plot. juz dumb humour. and there was this scene tht the guy ingested too much viagra, and started to get really big down there, and somehow he committed suicide. which dident make much sense but looked real funny.

ok.. itz been qt tiring. and theres a ton of gp to do. one compre two essays or something. probably start tmr. after the milk run. which means ive gotta run 8km tmr through the city. sounds like fun, doesnt it?

2006-06-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

i finally plucked up enough courage to seek help in removing the layer of skin on my left footsole that has off-late been given me a shitload of pain.

it appeared since a year and a half ago, but i cldnt really be bothered coz i thot it wld juz go away but it dident. but recently, theres a throbbing pain at night and right now, my shoes dont really give that much support. since my nike air is like almost deflated, and i havent broken into my new pair.

and it feels better to walk on now. haha..

and seeing that i was rather bored this afternoon, i did an online jung psychometric test. and it dident show much.. I was fluctuating at borderline at 20% for I/E, N/S, and F/T. until the last part when i got 89% for J. so i guess that means im rather judgemental right?

yeah fits the bill somewhat. i haf this tendency to form strong opinions abt people which usually takes alot to change. and first impressions really play a major role for me. which cld be rather prophetic.

okay.. im not making alot of sense here. but heres a happy fathers day to all dads. coz coincidentally, itz the 100th day of my grandmas death... so theres a traditional thing which i haf to go for in the morning. but in any case.. got my dad a shirt from raoul.

and now.. itz time to start winding down, or itz gonna be another fitful night..

2006-06-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday was teos birthday.. but i 4got to update. so Happy 18th to you teo! =)

nothing really eventful happened since my last post, except maybe the band concert which i dident even go for till the end. looks like im not fated to hear jermyn play his sax.. and of course a little shopping which includes a pair of adidas cyclones and topman stuff. and was qt surprised to run into daphne on the train ytd. lazy bum.. woke up so late. 0.O

but on a more solemn note.. itz saddening to hear that my classmate just lost his cousin.. always sad to see someone whos our age juz pass on. and itz like what.. the third bereavemen in our class already.. but take it easy trev.

2006-06-08T18:56:00.000+08:00

while mugging at home, i managed to complete jeffrey deavers The Twelfth Card, and im planning to start looking at the french book i borrowed. can feel the french slipping away. yeah.. and right now is Roland Garros, so itz a good time to brush up again.

anw.. heres a list of songs i wld dearly love to haf... of which i was so close to obtaining three of them last night from nana. whose connection inexplicably broke off halfway -_-

so heres the list:

Where’d You Go- Fort Minor
Almost-Bowling for Soup
Whats left of me- Nick Lachey
Hips don’t lie- Shakira
Girl next door- Saving Jane
Stick wit u – Pussycat Dolls
For you I will- Teddy Geiger
Just the girl- The Click Five
I’ll be- Edwin McCain

any help will be much appreciated =)

2006-06-06T21:34:00.000+08:00

was religiously following roland garros. and sadly, my efforts in front of the computer came to naught. the two players i was supporting both crashed out. namely hingis in two sets to clijsters and venus in three to vaidisova. the womens draw isnt that interesting now, save for a potential clash between HH and clijsters. so i shall juz turn my attention to the mens draw, a possible 1-2 showdown.

haha, still cant help but feel so listless after roland garros. sometimes i obsess over the smallest of things. silly of me huh..

think that the studying stint at home is really getting to me. for one theres really qt alot to look at..

and the GSS is on. mebbe i will juz go down one of these days to see if theres any good bargains.

2006-06-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

received a pleasant msg from overseas last night while i was abt to sleep. haha.. 12 midnight. but glad that the hols are at least fun for some.

for me, i haf alot to catch up on. and the thing abt mugging for ct is that theres so much stuff to study for. meanwhile, i shall go catch some tennis action on the rolandgarros website.

on the ferry home.. the wind was damn strong

2006-06-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

the view from the boat

2006-06-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

ms koh

2006-06-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

ri geps

2006-06-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

last day

2006-06-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

rui and guanghao fooling arnd

2006-06-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

p3s

2006-06-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

our p4s and p5s

2006-06-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

the kids and the sculpted balloons

2006-06-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

the kids, and the sch in the middle of nothing

2006-06-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

up the slope

2006-06-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

the half hour walk along the coast to the village

2006-06-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

the pool we were planning to swim in

2006-06-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

the marina at night

2006-06-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

guanghao acting cute

2006-06-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

check out the amount we spent on groceries..$ 669,000! in rupiah..

2006-06-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

2006-06-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

im back!! itz been a long week and im glad that i went on this trip, which probably would be the final cip trip as an interactor. still recalled that the night before my temperature shot to 38.7 degrees, till my mom thought it was best to skip the trip. it took some wrangling and alot of pills before i finally went for the trip. though there wasnt a single day that i was free of the medication, especially the third day when my head was throbbing like mad.

so it was pretty hard to battle both the effects of the medication, and the sweltering heat. you can never imagine just how hot the school is. its smack right in the middle of a pseudo desert, and their soccer pitch is just sand. all the classrooms only had 1 opening, which was the door, and there were so many kids in the classroom.

the first day i took the p1s with a couple of others, and they made me feel what its really like to be helpless. becoz they had almost no command of english, and we cldnt speak bahasa indonesia. so our conversation involved alot of wild gesticulating and miming. not to mention, the kids were hyper and kept screaming, until the lvl reached like 100 decibels or something. it was a really sapping afternoon.

so that night, we decided to scrap the lessons we prepared and come up with a new teaching style, since only andreas, ilman, and diana cld speak malay. it was kind of a waste, cause there was really alot of materials prepared. but we juz haf to adapt. Fortunately, i got to teach the p4s and p5s together with poon, zhifeng, perry, diana, daniel, chay yeow, eric and huibin. i think we worked pretty well as a group, coz huibin and eric handled the girls pretty well and the guys in my group were qt okay.

but i guess the highlight for me was the frequent visits to the kelong, or the indonesian equivalent. the kids took us there and we just sat there in the breeze playing with the kids. its amazing how they can haf so little and yet still be so happy. and i think despite all their rowdiness, they are qt helpful and friendly. still recalled how a little boy taught me how to skip stones on the water and another gave me a whole handful of miniature conches. haha.. my personal best now is five skips.

the times spent in the sch were really qt relaxing and during the 4hr lunch break we also got time to rest and prepare. had one of the more meaningful conversation with poon and later joshua. During which, i guess we realised that the people who are perpetually busy with something, while admirable, are just only good for diplomatic business-like relations. itz impossible to ever step to another level purely because we just cannot bring ourselves to ask them to spend time with us and pull them from their work. sad but true..

but of course back in the chalet, i think we really haf to give it to the girls for coming over to make breakfast every morning.. and things like spaghetti and all. though it was qt good to bunk with the ri geppers, coz it was pretty chaotic at first. poon wanted the bed, so he koped one, reuben koped the other. so i took poon's sleeping back, and joshua took mine and my banana cushion as well. and of course there were the times when rui went crazy and started spouting nonsense, to the point that he single-handedly drove joshua, poon and me to squeeze into one bed. talk abt the mouth being mightier than the sword.

a coupla of us wanted to go swimming to escape the heat, but then again.. theres the school policy against such things.. qt irritating actually. and of course during the trip back, guanghao, yacong, rui, reuben, poon, andreas and i took a separate ferry back earlier on. and it was a madrush to the terminal coz we jus came back from a 45mins drive. and yacong got detained at the customs coz of her passport, and it was pretty bad coz the ferry was leaving in 5 mins and there was no teacher with us.

but luckily things turned out okay. so we cleared customs and boarded the ferry. and we stayed on the top deck all the way. qt exhilarating to feel the wind blowing against us, while we sailed into the night sky.. trying to sing songs against the engines...

so that pretty much wraps up the last IU trip. of all the past cip trips, this probably rates second-best. coz nothing can really beat the 2004 chiangmai trip to the sanpathong school. looking back, theres nothing i enjoyed more than the experience there. but guess this is juz another chapter closing, and itz been a good run. so right now.. itz back to books..

2006-05-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

had a fitful sleep last night that got so bad that i had to wake up at 3am to eat paraceptamol. thought that i cld go to school in the morming but it got even worse at 6am. was suffering from high fever and i couldnt even cough without jolts of pain through my lower back. so as luck would have it, im on mc again for the third time within weeks.

the doctor said it was an acute viral onset since the high fever came so suddenly and my condition was exacerbated by over-exertion and severe inflammation of my throat. so she prescribed some powerful painkillers and medication. Hopefully, i can recover in time for the indonesia trip this sunday. itz like a race against time right now coz this is the absolute worst time to be sick. so im going to listen to her and take things really slow for today and tomorrow. but theres the psc psychometric thing in the morning which i cant postpone so hopefully by tonight i will be fine, though it is pretty unlikely.

itz been a sucky two days. was looking forward to a da vinci movie date yesterday, but it diden materialise coz of all the exta lects till 5pm. instead i went to the national eye centre, and the diagnosis is that ive got degrees in both eyes plus astigmatism. and inexplicably the doctor told me to hold on for a while to see how it goes. well.. hes the senior consultant so cant possibly argue with his judgement..

and while im here feeling all worn out, heres wishing addie and sam a good UK Lit trip. the flight was at 6am today so they shdve arrived by now.. so enjoy urselves =D

okay, im gonna take another nap again.

2006-05-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

Just got back from watching X3 with x-2 and co. iItz a really cool show. But personally, i found it hauntingly hard to swallow. Some parts of the show were qt shocking. In a way, it sort of fell short of my expectations. When i was younger i used to follow xmen qt religiously, so (im not gonna spoil it for the rest) when certain powerful characters died or lost their powers, it was juz a real punch in the solar plexus. But the ending was a nice twist, so thats a good omen. But the plot could haf been better i guess, compared to X2. For one there doesnt really seem to be a central focus although the film seemed to be grappling with issues like friendship, love, sacrifice and the whole load of other stuff...

but watching jean grey's character is qt a poignant portrayal of reality. sometimes looking at all the ppl i supposedly feel closer to, itz like im recognizing who they once were and not what they are now. i know so little of them that i hardly know them anymore.

S said that it was his last day of official duties today. yeah, i remembered feeling that same bittersweet emotion. Coz when that chapter closed, i thot this wld be a time to renew old friendships and consolidate past acquaintances and get to know my circle of frens better. but now, looking at the way things are, im unlikely to ever know any friend better. this is the way it is now. and this is the way it probably is going to stay judging by how things go presently.

some friends, even the closer ones, come to you only when they need help, whatever happened to plain hanging out? i know for sure that things that are not consolidated fall apart. itz like a universal law which applies to everything.
and i know that right now, im not really experiencing any kind of true sincerity at any level, because whenever theres a conversation, decorum and etiquette kick in. things that you can say, or cannot say.. and the whole mumbo jumbo.

i find it hard to be frank to anyone if that level of wariness still exists. at the end of the day i guess i cant keep anything going alone. and at the end of it all, sometimes i can see myself being the one who finally slams the door shut, if the situation ever calls for it.

but today, i guess i realised that a support is pretty important. And frankly, im beginning to realise that i haf found a new-found avenue where i can really place my trust in, someone who wasnt even within my group of frens at the start. you probably know who you are, and thanks for being so accommodating and being the one receiving the shorter end of the stick. thats what friends are for right..

2006-05-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

okay.. today was cramming day. right now i have no idea what to do. wanted to look at drv, but itz gonna take me the whole night, with my aptitude for maths. and tonight juz dont haf time. im planning to sleep early for GP tomorrow, so it looks like i cant complete drv anyway.

haha.. wanted to go service with mon cheri today. but today was juz a bad day. anw.. im sure juwita was entertaining as usual. wished i had ur drive.. so i can get the elusive last few hrs -_-

anw x3 sneaks are out tmr. im being fanatical here, but itz juz one of my favourite movies of all time. so thank god im catching it tmr. think i will probably go home after IU meeting, which is after GP, then scoot out again for the show. anything's worth it for x3.

and thurs is da vinci. talk abt movie madness. yeah.. the reviews arent good. but like what aamar said, itz juz one of those shows that uve gotta catch for the summer, good or bad. and i agree with that... so at least i wld haf seen all i wanted to b4 IU.

2006-05-22T18:29:00.000+08:00

2 things you do NOTt say to a fellow classmate late at night..
1) got a proposal for you..
2) you can produce with me..

right sam? haha. she was rather entertaining last night. And according to her perverted mind, the NS docs slap our butts to test for hernia or herpes.. and furry claims that the docs squeeze our b****. For the record, both diden happen. so sorry sam, cant tell you if mine was a positive test.

but the NS medical was really qt long and boring. there were a hell lot of RJ ppl today. the first thing i got there.. someone butted me and that was leehu. and later on there were even more ppl. all in all, there were 6 stations: the ENT which is the hearing station and probably the most spastic. the eye test, blood and urine test, x-ray, dental, and the last station which is the MO and ECG etc.

at the blood station i got called back out coz they found out that my RBC count was too low, but the second check revealed nothing wrong. so thank god, coz my sister is anaemic so hopefully i dont have it. and for all those who havent already taken the test, drink some tea or some diuretic before u go. coz there was this poor guy who juz cldnt piss and itz really pressurizing to perform in that situation.

but the officers there were qt humorous, so it wasnt all that boring. the eye ppl took qt long to establish that rui and i were twins although rui purposely wore all white, and myself all black. and apparently.. being a lefty means u are being extra -_-

& the old guy at the blood booth was kidding me abt the mark on my left thigh. yeah yeah.. it isnt what itz supposed to look like, itz juz a birthmark. had it since i was like a toddler.

at the ECG station, the chart said that i had sinus arrythmia, which cant be a good thing. but i checked with the MO, who is supposed to give us a full-body examination, and he said they wld double check but shd be nothing. so thats good. so right now, im in PES A.

okay. im off to rest for a while b4 i do something productive. juz went for a 2hr exercise, so im gonna slack for a while. and then itz back to work. what a life

2006-05-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

just got back from running and the whole station-specific routine. was planning to do something more strenuous but the rain spoilt everything. but there's still tmr =D coz im not going to sch coz of the NS medical checkup. which means that i'll haf time after that. talk about a long weekend. but i really need this break. itz not good to miss lects, considering that im gonna miss alot of make-up lects in the first week of hols coz of IU. but everything end-of-term, i become really reticent to get into the sch routine.

sigh.. since cca ended ive been needing extra motivation to exercise on my own. but ive been feeling qt motivated these days. so thats good. i juz dont like being cooped up in my room all day so itz a good respite. though it wld be betta to do something more competitive to get the adrenaline pumping. but running is GOOD. or so i try to psycho myself.

and just a random thought.. do your dreams really reflect who and what ure thinking of? if so then a few ppl muz be forever in my head coz somehow, they keep appearing in my dreams. woah..

2006-05-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

went for the last college play yesterday night, and this time round, it was rather accessible. yeah.. that coming from me so guess everyone could understand too. the first play was qt tame, and bordered on really safe topics. but itz for syf so guess it cant be too contentious. but the second play was pretty good, subject to interpretation though.

but thats the end of it. the last college play, maybe not for the players, but for us as j2s. for now onwards, alot of things are gonna start ending. so itz really the proverbial beginning of the end. yeah, im pretty happy that there wont be too many activities that cld distract me from what i really haf to do. at this point, the indulgence in cca and all is over.

and recently, some friends haf lost finals here and there. but i guess, the worst part of it all is not having the chance to make amends. but we juz hafta move on. and a teacher once told me that whatever i lost somewhere, i gained in other area. i juz haf to discover that new-found gain. so losses arent that bad, juz remember to get back into footing.

and i think the most important thing is to learn how to let go. itz absurd to be oblivious to the truth that's staring at you in the face. things end one way or another. so the mental preparedness has gotta be there. i really admire those frens i know who juz keep having new goals. i know im not like that. but im learning.

there were times when i refused to let go, and all i got back was painful backlash. so right now, my mantra is juz to let go. move on.

2006-05-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

i finally extricated my non-electric mask and jacket for a class fencing demonstration that ytyt requested during civics. im getting rusty, lunge is like shit. i thot i was gng to split my pants, which was what happened to a tennis player who put his hand in his pocket while running after the ball and ended up tearing his shorts. fencing can be qt fun when ure in the mood, but right now.. im into something else.

after sch went for netball match support. unfortunately rj lost. but nonetheless, it was a good fight.. so cheerios! there can be pride in defeat too.

and last night.. took time to suss out the xmen3 7-minute sneak peek. and believe me, the show is really really cool, especially the scene where Magneto literally held up the traffic. woah. MUST WATCH

2006-05-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

today has been a sucky day, to say the least. I cant seem to get rid of the viral infection that i picked up last week. initially i wanted to take the day off, but that wldnt be good since i alr took two days off last week.

itz the usual culprits again, viral inflammation etc, plus my favourite friend-conjunctivitis. so i juz diden feel like talking much today. think my voice is going.

ordinarily i wld haf let myself recover over the next week, but since next week is the IU trip, had to go see my GP again. only now she had a whole range of other symptons to report, and a shitload of other medication now.

oh but anw. rafael nadal beat roger federer again. yeah.

and to T, psyche up k! a loss is a stepping stone to a win =)

2006-05-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

watched MI3 last night. and it was a really crowded day yesterday. in the early afternoon it wasnt that bad, but evening it was juz mad. the queue and lido was so long, and cineleisure was out of tix. so in the end, we went to the Grand Cathay to watch MI. the new place is really cool. not that there was alot to see but itz i think itz gonna be a really good hangout once itz open. there are alot of really good stores there, like ben and jerry cafe and munchie monkeys.

MI was juz okay. think the show was a lil overrated. i cldnt really get how lawrence fishburnes character turned out to be the good guy in the end, so anyone who understands juz explain it to me. we wrangled over the flavour of popcorn to order, and when i came back from a leak, to my dismay they chose SWEET.

but the night was really entertaining. russ was regaling everyone with his tales from kazakhstan. itz qt an intriguing place, nothing like what i really expected. or mebbe itz juz the way he said it.. hes a master story-teller from start to finish.. i mean he literally talked through dinner.

and i found out juz how difficult it is to look for stuff in the cinema. after the show, russ and all were looking up and down for the OC soundtrack we gave him coz it slipped out. and it was bloody hard to find it. the attendant had to come over to lend his torch to us.. turns out that aloy actually felt it alr.. but he let it go coz he diden know wad it was -_-

but anw.. thanks for the company guys.. and the really cool tee from New Urban Male. itz a little cheeky .. haha.. but will wear it out one of these days.

one down. so 3 to go. X3 opens on 25th may. which is 2 days b4 i go indonesia, so im definitely gng to catch it b4 i go..

damn.. im getting sick all over again. put myself under sedatives alr.. so hopefully i will go into deep sleep and recover. yup.. tmr itz exercise day. so looking forward to sweating it out

2006-05-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

finally the long weekend is here. been feeling really lethargic the whole week. i dunno, itz alot of work to catch up on, plus the nagging effects of medication. but at least there will be time to rest this week.. not tmr though.

theres IU trip grp sharing and bonding or sth in the morning, den after that going out to celebrate russ bdae.. which we havent got arnd to doing coz he was in kazakhstan.

finally finished reading the da vinci code. yeah.. im like the last person who hasnt already read it, but thought it wld be good to read it b4 the movie comes out. speaking of which, alot of good films this month.. MI3 is already out, poseidon (okay), da vinci and of course the summer blockbuster and my all-time favourite: XMEN III: the last stand.

probably going to catch all of them, save for poseidon.. so tt wld be good enjoyment

2006-05-10T18:52:00.000+08:00

today was undeniably eventful, not the way anyone would haf wanted though. a classmates mother passed away, and the thing was no one knew abt it coz we juz assumed his absence to be for the NS medical checkup. theres been a lot of absentees the past two days.. myself, mingren, jerm ytd, rui today etc..but it was a rude shock for everyone when mrs yeo found out too. the class was literally stunned. we went off in batches afer sch to the wake since part of the class was going with mrs yeo at 3+ , but i had sth on, so went with jermyn jeffrey trevor and mingren first.

and i guess the magnitude of this juz sent home a poignant message. this cld haf been anyone of us. itz easy to see things in a detached frame of mind when all ure ever watching are soap stories, but when it happens in real life, the feeling of loss is so surreal you never believe it happened. on the way there, it was a whole round of deja vu all over again coz the funeral parlour was beside the place where my grandma was cremated not too long ago year. somehow i can never shut out the past.

but itz been a sobering trip. it made me feel just how lucky i am to haf the people i love arnd me. and as much as i dont really know this classmate very well, despite being in the same sch since we were sec 1s, im just really sorry this happened. to lose someone so close, itz like having a part of you ripped out and thrown away. the pain of which is.. nothing even comes close.

2006-05-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

the past two days have been spent being sick. i came in the morning yesterday but everything seemed wrong. my eyes starting watering and was feeling hot all over, so i took a blue slip right after photo taking. In the end, i had to miss my medical checkup at Mt Elizabeth for the IU trip, but got my GP to do it for me anw.

it can be good to be sick. coz u get so sick that you are numb to everything and juz dismiss anything. in short, you dont get to use ur cognitive abilities. now thats refreshing. itz great to be able to block emotions out, which is something ive picked up over the past two weeks. well, right now theres a shit load of work to catch up on, in fact alot of lects. monday is not a good day to miss school. so itz all the better, my mind can only focus on work.

2006-04-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

For the past one and a half years, Ive constantly reminded myself that my good frens shd be one of my highest priorities in JC since itz juz so easy to lose contact and knowing all of them, we juz arent good at expressing ourselves to each other. I mean, itz been 2 years + of frenship, some even more..

But yesterday, I guess it was something that triggered a really overwhelming flash of anger and disappointment. I was boiling over by juz sitting down listening to lessons. Right now, it seems that my belief this past year and half, has been nothing more than my self-disillusionment. I thought that if I put in the effort, ppl would reciprocrate and we wld be as good as we used to be. but thats juz stupidity at best. foolish even.

Im juz sick of getting the short end of the stick. To keep having ppl tell me they haf cca, they haf to do this and that. All the stunted responses that make me feel like Im talking to a wall, or rather I shdnt even be initiating the conversation since they are all preoccupied. All the signals have never been clearer in showing me that Im juz taking up their time. But I accept it unconditionally juz because they are the ppl i hold in such high regard.

Yet, after a while, it does say alot about what they think of you. Im not the free-est person in rj, i take the time because I think this is what matters to me. but not anymore.

The way things have turned out. Itz disappointing. I expected more, and this is where expectation kills. Itz easier to juz turn the other way so i wont haf the see the in-your-face ugliness of truth. From this on end, Im juz not going to care anymore, period. i ask myself why.. and the answer juz jumps straight back: itz pointless to even try.

2006-04-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

juz some random musings...

1) mrs yeo wants rui and me to teach the class fencing during civics soon, among other stuff like tina and her aerobics/indian dance and jeffrey's bridge. the blade and jacket is so heavy.. but furry can be a good live demonstrator..

2) this weekend is russell's birthday, but hes representing singapore in.. of all places.. kazakhstan. itz such a cool place to go to. asked him to get for me a bottle of soil from kazakhstan. so hopefully he remembers..

3) was qt bemused when i saw the cover for the Home paper. haha.. immediately thought of teo and nana. turned out that i was alr the 10th person to ask nana if he was dead.. hes qt miffed that ppl tink hes small. but dont worry.. i dont!

4) good luck teo and gang for ur next match =)

5) it sucks to be forever at the shorter end of the straw. and it sucks to be unceremoniously dumped out. but then again, for every person that treats you like a second fiddle, theres someone out there to whom you mean the world too. i believe that that someone is out there.. the person might even be right b4 me

2006-04-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

i am so damn tired. slept during chem lect, which is something i told myself not to do, ever, coz itz so hard to catch up later on. but juz cldnt help it. still haf a massive sleep debt to recover, hopefully by tmr.

but anw, fencing camp over the weekend was a blast. it was a great final experience with the j2s.

started off with the icebreakers, where balpreet and jiahua had to do the titanic thing. err... it was qt an eye-opener. then went to do a station game with changhong. basically for station games, if a team fails anyone station it has to start from beginning.

so we made a pact to fail all groups the first time, but it turned out that because of this, alvin's group had to keep going back to the first station coz we failed them thrice. and they had to keep gng back to drink reuben's disgusting blender concoction.

in the end, we juz had to let everyone pass. i mean it was pretty fake lah, we had to max out the time by purposely wasting time so all of them will pass. during which, jireh and nat came back. jireh looked so different.. muz be the bmt.

den had lunch. following that we had ball tourneys. was supposed to referee the vball game at the tennis court. so since there was qt a long interval, i juz took the chance to go hit some balls. and there's really alot of ppl who can play tennis in fencing like angeline, zhihui, dione, sam, addie and wendy who was trying to pick it up.

and after that, we had the mandatory fencing bonding activity. which was more like a tekan session. and all the j2 guys had to physically drag out j1s, which was near impossible coz they are so much bigger than all of us and they were keeping themselves together so well. itz qt physically demanding, recalled that i broke a toenail last yr when jireh was dragging us out. but hopefully they learnt sth from it. sadistic pleasure..

mr ng treated us to pizza after that for dinner. and since all the j1s were out having their dinner. we had another tennis session. guys on one court, girls on the other. but played agnst sam after that, wah she sure has a hell lot of strength for a girl. and our coach came down as well =)

den we went to plan the night walk. mr ng and dr. wong came along. i thought we had more fun scaring ourselves than planning the route. and mr ng really has qt a few rather interesting ideas =) the walk itself lasted for pretty long.. till like 1.30 am. but really freaked the j1s out coz they watched ju-on and the exorcist b4 that.

went to bathe.. den sat in for the exco deliberations.. which lasted till like 4+ am.. but it was qt farnie to hear all the stuff they haf to say. but it got so late that we all juz slept in the same room.

next morning woke so early. and planned the Drain Walk. i think it was a really bad experience for the j1s. but itz meant to be a rough and dirty game.. once in a lifetime experience.

had elections after that.. which lasted till like 4pm. den finally strike camp. so itz been a really long weekend.

i needa go do some workk now..

2006-04-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

itz been a really Good Friday. okay, juz being lame here. but i finally got to play tennis after eons! went to hulins place to hit balls. somehow the weather wasnt too good, with rain interrupting our game twice. but managed to play out two rather close 7-5 matches. come to think of it, now that cca is juz almost nearly over, there really isnt much exciting stuff left in sch, unless ure one of those who really enjoys all the lessons in sch. but i think itz good to be focused from now on, afterall, who doesnt want to get into a good uni thereafter?

and tennis never fails to make me hungry. went upstairs, and we ordered kfc delivery. den ate like alot of stuff while playing cards and watching Mauresmo play Clijsters. actually, Mauresmo wld be a pretty good-looking guy, but shes juz stuck in the middle of nowhere.

okay.. camp tmr. shall go pack now. the star sports Name Game keeps playing in my mind right now... like maria maria maria...

2006-04-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

had a chance meeting with one of my seniors from 2so3h 2005. ha.. shes doing relief teaching right now. and guess what.. shes going to princeton. and i diden realise it, but shes bryan tays sister.

learnt qt alot of stuff from her, despite her incessant complaints abt her sandals =P. im juz really envious of her right now. she has all the freedom and the world at her feet, and that is a very good position to be in. and frankly, our senior class. they are really good. all distinctions in all 4 subjects except for 1 B in math, 1 B in chem and forgot the other stat. but thats qt an incredible record.

2s03h 2006 this year seems to be getting better i guess. as in the class atmosphere isnt really qt competitive, compared to s3 and s4. so sometimes i need the additional motivation to work hard. but based on ct1, the class has done pretty well. we got 3 of the top 4 math students, and topped chem.. so hopefully, we can do as well as our senior class.

but anw, tmr's pw results. what sort of sch juz dumps u this announcement completely without warning and leaves it hanging..

2006-04-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

okaay.. juz found out the new j1 fencers haf a pair of twins, linus and lester, who were formerly from tennis. ah okay, this is kinda cool.

2006-04-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

napfa's over!! phew, got gold with 29. so at least i wont hafta worry abt going in directly after the As. at least itz good to see that all the training for it hasnt gone to waste.

spent like two hours doing the whole thing in the morning under intermittent weather. the first station was pull-ups, and that was the station i got a B. or rather, i diden want to continue. on my tenth pull, my left arm joint juz shifted a bit, so i juz dropped. i wld rather keep my joints intact, seeing that rui has a recurring loose arm socket, and the doctor keeps insisting itz genetic.

after that it was pretty okay, juz that the shuttle run was so slippery. at the sit and reach, i realised im more flexible than i thought. 61cm.. venantius cldnt qt believe that. neither did i actually. got a PB at standing broad jump, but i cldnt beat my 2.4 time from last yr.

we ran with 3A and giri is so damn fast. he clocked in at 8.56 and juz trounced the whole field. that is really fast.

mingren shd really learn how to balance. second time in as many weeks he fell of the chair in the ITR. tried to grab him and almst got taken down. tsk tsk... 1.85m of him on the ground juz isnt a pretty sight. okay, not gonna switch shoes with him anymoe..

anw.. shall be going to buy stuff for camp on thurs. checked the games list, im doing this 5th level nightstick thing that is modelled on Saw II, refereeing for volleyball, and another item paired with CH. and theres the Party at 1130pm on sat night..

2006-04-08T19:52:00.000+08:00

ora jog was really a walk. and we had to be there by 715, which is even earlier than school. in the end, i went to train chin-ups since napfa is this tues alr. then went to do the ora walk with addie and rui, which consisted of a round around the sch compound. qt a waste of time actually. but had alot of time to discuss games. and im really for the drain walk. itz a great idea.

went to the bone marrow booth after that. and saw mingren, jerm and mk there. haha..the caucasian lady was squeezing blood out of rui's finger like she was milking a cow or sth, but itz for a good cause. den went to sam's muffin booth to get choc and banana muffins. they were qt nice, and thus a logical deduction is that sam diden bake it herself. haha..

went to the city later to look for sth. cant find what im looking for. oh well, shall try again next wk or sth.

2006-04-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

had a really troubling conversation last night, that made me take a harder look at myself in the mirror. do i like what i see?

im not unfeeling. if i get pricked, i bleed. im sorry that im not the person you think i am. im alot of things, to the extent that i dunno who ive become. some things juz arent that important to me anymore. but u arent one of those.

2006-04-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

the fencing camp games are amazingly weird but fun. had myself in stitches reading sam's hilarious suggestions. but its okay, we are gonna really haf a good time being game masters, under the brilliant leadership of addie koh. haha..=D

anw, im glad that im running the ora walk-a-thon with trevor and a few others. at least that will save us the whole opening ceremony thing with the PM. i wld rather go run or walk or whatever than juz stay in the LTs. coz it can be really boring, like how the ri lectures were like. finally, my first and last time doing ora.. not like i wld haf the chance anymore anw..

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i guess i made a wrong judgement call. i thought you were better than that. all along, uve been so high on my priority list, tho it wasnt necessarily the same case back. but right now. i juz cant think of a good reason why this is worth it.

2006-04-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

got back gp today. which is the only paper i did. frankly, im fine with whatever ive gotten. tho itz always the nagging feeling that i cld haf done better, esp. for AQ which ms lim was hammering me about. yeah.. it wasnt a good showing. in fact it was bad. but at least it was better than what i thot i wld get. i think ms lim expected more from me, but oh well. it wasnt good enough. i will try harder.

anw.. itz gonna be two long days in a row, both with pe, due to timetable swop. but at least im okay with my 2.4 speed. practised 3 laps during pe, and managed to run under last year's time. but knowing myself, im gonna slow down the next 3 laps. napfa is next week, so i juz wanna clear it well and finish it off. i cant imagine gng to camp one day after prom.

and fencing camp is arnd the corner, so hopefully it will be a good parting experience. actually im more looking forward to spending a weekend of fun with the j2s. loads of stuff lined up. of course.. we cld potentially haf our recreation: tennis! mixed doubles! or mebbe doubles! haha..

i think my triad is collecting dust though i juz changed my grip.. and got a new adidas outfit as a present. and of course.. i tink mr ng might be reading this. but if u are.. err. hi sir!! we can talk rubbish throughout the night =D

2006-04-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

was online and was talking to my thai friend who juz got admitted into chiangmai university, which is something like the best university in northern thailand. and she sent over a picture of her last night w her frens b4 they haf to go separate ways. it just reminds me of how old we are getting. im really qt glad to see her achieving what she set out for. itz painful to see dreams and fantasies juz die.

i dont think chiangmai U means alot to anyone in singapore, but i guess everyone's goals differ. itz good to have dreams, but even better to know how to get there. im still searching, and hopefully i will find my way.

and while we are on the topic of dreams. heres one by U2. dedicated to freedom leader aung san suu kyi, someone who has really captured my imagination.

Walk On

And love is not the easy thing
The only baggage that you can bring
Love is not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind...

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Oh, oh
Walk on, walk on
What you got, they can't steal it
No, they can't even feel it
Walk on, walk on
Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been
A place that has to be believed, to be seen
You could have flown away
A singing bird in an open cage
Who will only fly, only fly, for freedom

Oh, oh
Walk on, walk on
What you got, they can't deny it
Can't sell it, or buy it
Walk on, walk on
You stay safe tonight

And I know it aches
And your heart, it breaks
You can only take so much

Walk on...
Walk on...
Home...
Hard to know what it is, if you never had one Home...

I can't say where it is, but I know I'm going Home...
That's where the hurt is...
And I know it aches
And your heart, it breaks
And you can only take so much

Walk on... (Hooo)
Leave it behind
You got to leave it behind

All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measure
All that you feel
All this you can leave behind

All that you reason, (it's only time)
(Love is a feeling on my mind)
All that you sense
All that you scheme
All you dress-up
All that you've seen
All you create
All that you wreck
All that you hate

2006-03-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

im listening to a marathon of songs now. finally got hold of the whole bunch of u2 songs thanks to russell. u2, snow patrol, arctic monkeys, kings of convenience, and deathcab for cutie rock!!

2006-03-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

1. Whats the earliest memory you have of yourself crying?
I haven’t cried in a long time, but the first time was probably over spilt milk, literally, when I was one. Haha.. thats over seventeen years ago.

2. What time do you wake up in the morning?
6, when there is school. But otherwise around 8+. Really admire those ppl who can wake up at 7 even on a non-school day!

3. Gold/silver?
Silver, coz its one of my favourite colours. Anyway gold is qt hard to match with anything for guys.

4. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
v for vendetta. That ROCKED. Though it was too much thinking..

5. Fave tv show?
desperate housewives, one tree hill, American idol (occasionally) and my all time favourite : Greys Anatomy =D

6. What do you have for breakfast?
mostly carbs.. like bread or delifrance croissants if my dad buys back.

7. Who would you like to be left in a room with?
what can I possibly do in a room? Anyway.. that is a no-brainer question =P

8. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
no, I was teaching my 6-year old cousin to do it. But if he cant, I probably cant do it either.

9. What are you most afraid of?
failure. I hate it when things are beyond my control.

10. What inspires you?
passion and strength of character. Two really big driving forces.

11. Whats your middle name?
I doubt I haf one.

12. City, beach or country?
city and beach. I dont think I would wanna stay in a country. Its fun to go there to sight-see. But itz really slow over there, so I would rather stay at the city and beach. There is more action.

13. Summer or winter?
summer! The only good thing about Singapore is that u can go out and play sports and all the whole year round. Juz that no skiing tho.

14. Buttered, plain or salted popcorn?
buttered salted and sweet. I used to like only salted, until I got influenced by the ppl I go movies with who eat SWEET. So now itz assorted.

15. Fave car?
Mercedes SLK or CLK. Thats been my dream car for ages. Imagine the power. Oh make it silver-grey or black.

16. Fave sandwich filling?
tuna or any kind of meat.

17. Fave type of music?
im okay with a lot of types, except jazz, heavy metal and to some extent, country.

18. fave past-time?
watching tv, tennising, reading, music, and hanging out.

19. What characteristics do you despise?
ppl who think too much of themselves, and those who dont appreciate enough the ppl around them, that means me to some extent =(

20. fave flower?
not much preference. Anything bright and red.

21. If you had a big win in the lottery, how would you wanna spend it all?
go travelling, get gifts, donate some to charity, and save at standard chartered =)

22. Do you wear pyjamas?
nope.. I want to stay cool at night. Pjs are too long and restrictive.

23. What colour are your eyes?
dark brown. Nothing extraordinary.. haha.

24.how many keys are on your key rings?
2 or 3. though I always forget to take it out

25. what is your fave day of the week?
Saturday. The day I haf a good rest knowing that there is Sunday after that.

26. red or white wine?
Red mostly. Depending on the occasion. Though I like pinot noir and sauvignon.

27. what did you do for your last birthday?
my blog says it all.

28. do you carry a donor card?
er..no?

29. say something nice about the person you got this from:
jean should make more use of her reach against box. But she’s pretty fast =)

30. who do you least expect to do this?
i cant expect anyone to do this.

31.what book are you reading now?
im in the zone where I juz completed a few books so im not reading anything now. But I read john grishams the last juror and bleachers, patricia cornwells unnatural exposure and coetzees disgrace.

32.what's your favourite board game?
taboo and pictionary. If its considered.

33. favourite magazine?
nothing specific.. I read anything that I find interesting.34. favourite smells?my fragrances lah: of a man, urban spice and bvl pour home. Haha.. and I love smelling the rain and sea.

35. comfort food?
eating is like the biggest sin. Tho I have a natural weakness for chocolate, dark chocolate especially, and cola gums and ben & jerrys.

36. favourite sound?
my brother singing. Who am I kidding? haha.

37. worst feeling in the world?
being shut out though i feel so much.

38. what is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
who will I see in during the course of the day.

39. favourite fast food place?
macs? there isnt much to choose from anyway.

40. future child's name?
im not even sure I want to haf them. But I think names like elliot, christophe, yves and Kieran are quite decent.

41. finish this statement: "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, ........"
I can slack for the rest of my life.

42. do you sleep with stuffed animals?
I dont really sleep with anything, coz im quite a messy sleeper. But I dont snore. Haha.. those pp live shared tents with should know.

43. what would be your first car?
nothing fanciful I guess. A normal sedan will do.

44. favourite drink?
juices. Especially sour ones.

45. finish this statement, "IF I HAD THE TIME, ....."
I will go out to indulge myself and sleep the next day away.

46. do you eat stems of broccoli?
wadz wrong with that? It tastes good when buttered.

47. if you could dye your hair any color, what color would you choose?
copper. Definitely.

48.What is under your bed?
er.. let me check. All my notes. Im such a good boy that I sleep on all the questions, so hopefully I haf the answers during tutorials.

49: a note for all:
good night. Itz late.

balcony!

2006-03-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

drinkng the waterfall

2006-03-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

bdae cookie

2006-03-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

huge portions at billybombers

2006-03-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

2006-03-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

thank you loads everyone for making my 18th birthday an unforgettable one. the timing this year isnt good, with common tests and all. but itz good to know that i haf ppl whom i can fall back on. thank you all!!

so here's a buncha ppl i wanna thank.. for all the messages and presents that juz really made my day.

my 7evens: Mingren, Trevor, Jermyn, Giri.
charmed: Aloy, baby, Russ, Shengle, Ngiap
the spammers (yeah i got the flood of sms): AdelineJerrineJoyChristineSamantha
my teachers: mrs tay, mrs chong, mr tan (thanks for chem s=D)
my fellow classmates:tina, devi, jeffrey
my dear (ex) schmates (tho we arent in any common class or stuff): daphne, trier, denise, leehu, melo, velda, josh, yams
and last but definitely some rigeppers whose company has always been great: reuben, hulin, teo

and unforgettably trevor and mingren for the surprise placard over webcam last nite. and of course poon for coming up with the nutty idea of swopping back our shirts at the stairwell coz we were both too lazy to walk to the shopping centre toilet.

thanks all!!

2006-03-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

itz been a while since i last blogged. the past week or so has been tough. my grandmother passed away last week so ive spent many days sleeping over at the funeral parlour, which is why im missing the common tests this round.

itz not a great experience. but it is a truly humbling one. this is not something i can do anything about. and the fact that im powerless to do anything is juz overwhelmingly depressing. i haf to just accept the situation. that's not my nature, but this is way out of my league. looking back, i juz feel that what i have achieved in my past 17+ years havent been alot. at the end of the road, i want to be able to know that i haf done so much more than i was initially able to.

it feels great to be juz sitting in front of my laptop writing this. because at least the worst is over. im thankful to my grandma for being a presence in my life, and for in more than one way, shaping the way ive turned out. thank you so much.

life goes on. and there's alot more to look forward to. im grateful to all the messages of condolences, my classmates, friends, mrs yeo.. mr tan etc. esp hulin and reuben and trevor.. whose words haf made the passing easier. thanks alot. you guys have been a great pillar of support.

let's juz move on from here.

2006-03-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

things are looking better now. thanks alot for the company and kind words guys, esp. trev, hulin, poon and addie. studying in sch has been a change of environment. so good to settle in again. one sad lesson: once u lose a person to someone else or something, ure never gonna get it back.

2006-03-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

how do you know when the end is near? my day sucks. totally. coz i spent it at changi general hospital. and frankly, seeing everything that's there juz dwarfs juz about everything right now. u go about doing ur own stuff, having fun and all. try going there and see what's really like.

i realised that we have always been so used to thinking that whatever we're doing is like the biggest thing in our lives and all. well itz not. itz both foolish and idealistic to treat ourselves with so much importance. we havent even begun to see what the world is like.

frankly i need to take my mind off things. the prognosis isnt good. heck, i haf a feeling tt if itz gonna come, itz gonna come so suddenly i wont haf time to prepare. good luck to me. my phone will be on the whole night..

2006-03-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

itz been a throughly tiring but fulfiling day. burnt on my face and on the feet from the hot sand at midday and with sand all over. but itz been great to be able to entertain the kids and with the other j2s. we went to sentosa at 7+ am when there's virtually no one there. itz the first time i've seen the beach vball court empty. but we cldnt play coz no one brought a ball -_-.

the JGS kids took qt a long time to arrive, so in the meantime we played inter group games. and itz been really fun to be in the orange grp with velda. the j1 girls are really spontaneous, not to mention qt confident. they all think they are qt chio..haha.

and i got buried in the sand by huiwen, poon, melody guanghao etc. and huiwen was such a sicko. kept kicking sand up my shorts, until someone came up with the bright idea of piling more sand. which guanghao levelled by jumping onto my stomach...oh man.

later on the kids were brought to underwater world and dolphin lagoon, which of course meant more free time for the rest of us who stayed behind. by then it was alr noon but poon lloyd wesley benedict rui and guanghao still went to play vball anw. and the sand is freakin hot!!! cldnt tahan after a while so everyone went off to wear slippers to play.

but itz always been qt a good feeling to actually bring joy to someone else's lives. sometimes i cant decide what is actually better. in a way the JGS children are deprived of the chance to see the world for what it is, or rather it wld be a long and arduous path for them.

itz sad that itz juz a roll of the genetic dice that decided this. on the other hand, their world is probably nicer than ours.

ours is one where everyone has skeletons in their closets. with these kids, u dont haf to tell any lies to them to get them to believe in anything. but for us, lies are juz a way to get ppl to believe in wha we want them to believe.

but frankly, itz qt impossible to hide everything. people learn abt stuff sooner or later. and sometimes, i choose to play the fool in acting like im oblivous to things tt i already know. itz more of a test of trust to see if ppl will actually trust u enough to let u in. sadly, tt's not the case.

all time favourite: with baby, rui and reuben on my left; hulin and aloy on top

2006-03-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

loo'k who's red

2006-03-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

the flaming lambourg.

2006-03-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

with huanna

2006-03-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

my pals

2006-03-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

reuben, rui, me, hulin, aloy (in his farnie t-shirt)

2006-03-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

poon, me, joie and rui

2006-03-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

fish and co.

2006-03-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

2006-03-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

enjoyed myself alot yesterday night.. one of the few times this year that i get to hang out late and haf fun!! and of course it was hulin's b'dae so hope that you had a great time dude!

dinner at Fish and Co. was like an rj congregation in a nice setting. was qt a welcomed change in setting after GP Commons. Frankly i thought we had qt good places despite our late booking, much to the chagrin of joy and poon's group. we had a view overlooking the band.. tho it was a lil too loud later on to fully hear the u2 songs. but the food was good, and so was the company.. took loads of photos which i will upload later..

We left early to go to indochine for drinks and the ambiance there was pretty good. hulin's flaming lambourghini really took the cake. haha.. but he got tipsy after that. imagine taking a huge shot at one go. not to mention it being flaming. small wonder he got red. and of course reuben wldnt let up on the chance to play a few games.. which as usual was aimed at making everyone expose their secrets. yeah.. and i know.. i lied once or twice k. so u guys go figure which ones were truths..tho for the most part i was telling the truth k.

but anw.. we saboed hulin and the indochine ppl got him up the stage to sing. was fun to watch lah as a spectator coz when ure drunk u dont really care abt much, which is good. but at least he was a good sport..

we hanged out till 11-ish, unwrapping presents talking and all.. but it was qt a great experience. felt qt tired today tho. everytime after drinking i always feel really alive in the morning until it goes downhill later on. but the night was really worth it =D

2006-03-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

itz already the last week of term. nowadays nothing really gets me up and excited anymore. the hols are here, but what's new. itz going to be a week of endless mugging so itz as good as no hols anyway.

but first of all, happy b'dae Giri! someone whose drive never fails to amaze, and of course our resident health-nut. hope u found polo black useful, courtesy of the Trevor Express.

shall try to keep my spirits up. there's still some fun left in the week ( on wed and of course SPIC this Saturday @ Sentosa). paired with Velda so hopefully no hiccups.

anw.. itz time to get into the mood for studying. will probably go back to sch to stave away distractions.

So study-mate anyone?

2006-03-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

failure to communicate or lack of communication is the first step to breaking down any relationship

2006-03-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

6/7

2006-03-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

juz came back from learning journey at the night safari. actually i can never qt piece together what the night safari has in common with learning journey besides the fact that they kept emphasizing on the 3Rs and all. but nonetheless it was not a bad trip. finally went back there after a decade. pretty long huh..

but mrs yeo wasnt here today. so mr tan took us. and he's a really great guy. got us chocolate during tutorial to keep us awake and den spent like 140 bucks on our dinner coz he went to get food for us since the eateries at night safari are bloody expensive. where to find such a teacher?! he rocks man. and the best part is.. it turns out he's mr ng's batchmate. what a small world. and mr ng hauled rui and i up to the staff room to 'talk' us into taking up Lit S for the third S paper. see the incoherent part? but tt's the unique part of his personality i guess.

anw..the part i liked best at safari was the mangrove trail. coz we were fooling arnd instead of looking at the animals properly. i need more vitamin A. i can barely see in the dark. but we found a tasier tt resembled Mingren alot: big eyes and no brains. and jerm attempted successfully in shocking rui by grabbing his leg in the dark.

anw. im going to avoid talking tmr. getting hoarse from eating the fried stuff and the crazy rendition of 'tonghua' with jerm in the bus. too much for my throat.

goodbye world. im off to sleep. itz been really tiring.

2006-03-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

i got an A1 for french!! itz finally a load off my chest. so thanks to all those who cared enough to msg and ask..

five years in the making and it wld haf sucked to fall at the final hurdle. rmbed msging monsieur after the paper coz i thot i went out-of point for essai. so itz a major relief.. tho it diden really help that mr tan and mr ng automatically assumed tt we were collecting our chinese results -__- but at least talking to mr ng is kind of a stress reliever. fencing camp is probably gonna be fun coz he's the teacher i/c. the things he says are on the brink of 'insanity' sometimes. but itz good to haf such candidness.

and guess audris did qt well too. mrs yeo was so happy tt she went to hug her.. haha.. so we demanded the same treatment too =P

anw.. there's gonna be class learning journey this fri.. to night safari. okay.. think we will be gng jalan kayu for prata for supper or sth. altho itz so ulu but hopefully it turns dark soon. dont suppose there will be much to see if itz bright.

2006-02-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

u20s ended today. i guess it wasnt a dream fairy-tale ending or anything. coz my team got booted out in the qfs.. but we lost to the team tt beat rjc A and SAFSA and eventually got gold. so wadz there to say? we lost to the better, if not best team in the competition =/

guess i have learnt qt a lot from competitions. itz one thing to be in a UG in secondary sch coz it focuses alot.. too much in fact on discipline and endurance. but in a sports cca, itz abt coping under pressure and making the best out of a bad situation. these are some mental aspects tt i was sorely lacking in at the beginning.. but at least itz much better now.

and itz pretty amazing what mental strength can do. went in there feeling tt there was nth to lose.. and i managed to beat 2/3 of the goldmedal team's fencers.. but mebbe itz tt long attacks worked better agnst them, which wasnt so much zhengyi's and alvin's style.

tried really hard today. after alvin, we were 5-2 down. but managed to go put the team back into the lead at 10-8. den after tt.. i really tried to catch up again.. did it again during my second bot.. but cldnt convert on my third bout. sucks.. but i really cant fence xavier, who's some national foilist or sth. god knows wad he's doing fencing sabre. but then again, if u can fence foil, u can fence anything.

diden tink david was very pleased today, and guess zhengyi felt kinda bad coz he thot he dragged us all down.. but den again. itz a team effort. if we win, we win as a team; if we go down, we lose together. and everyone has his off days so nonetheless.. good try rjc B! enjoyed teaming with u all..

and oh.. the two fencing t-shirts are really cool =)

2006-02-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

dramafeste this year featured qt a few plays tt i really cldnt put together. personally, i juz felt tt MT's play had the best focus and best theme on love and relationships, while MR's was easy to connect with and bayley's was juz funny to great effect. but i guess MR won best play coz it was the most- connectable, and they made qt good use of their props..

but somehow or rather, the atmosphere juz lacked the extra bit of excitement compared to last yr. i dunno, mebbe itz the effect of being j2 and all, where it really takes alot juz to get urself interested in things, or coz the airconditioning was so freaking cold, or coz im juz tired from shuttling here and there. but itz always nice to see the creativity tt can come out at df.. tho it was such a pity tt moor diden win anything =/

at the very least it was not a bad way to spend fri nite. frankly, sch can be really sian at times. but thanks giri, jerm, russ, hulin, addie and aloy 4 the company tonite =)

2006-02-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

strangely, im disoriented by school. every week or every few days i make a list of things i wanna do. but somehow i never get to put the checks beside the list of things. talk about being on-task. and itz frustrating to note tt im juz not getting enough done.

sch starts alot slower now. the past few days my mornings were spent sleeping on the tables in the homeroom, and i dont become fully conscious till after 1st period, which evidently must haf been true coz i was walking arnd with my fly undone today till giri alerted me. i needa perk up!!

alot has happened the past week or so. fencing indivs, interact camp and fright fest, chem spa, bio spa, phy lect test (which i so totally flunked), U20s team this sunday etc. so hopefully all goes well, so at least there wont be any repercussions.

been getting asked the same qn qt frequently by different ppl.. and of course during fencing definitely. dunno wad it appears like to them so they wanna noe if anything's happening... but no comments on my part..

2006-02-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

happy bdae sis and xy!! coincidentally on the same day but anw.. happy 20th and 18th!! nearly missed my sis' bdae dinner coz i was having so much trouble getting on the train after lending my ez-link card to mingren. now i hafta find a way to get to sch tmr.

but anw.. mr tan is really really nice. during tut he ended 10mins early and said he wanted to give us a surprise, which everyone took to be another of his surprise test. but it was a real surprise in this case. he gave everyone a different gift with a personalised note. how cool is tt.. haha.. im supposed to be the ''metrosexual-wannabe'' ^^. but according to him itz coz he never cld forget the sight of the 7evens all cleaning their faces with facial blotters during tut last year.. haha..

and today mark and david werent here for trng.. so had aik pong. and his daughter is a gem. she's so adorable.. only 11months old. but she had wendy eating out of her hand. haha.. wad great potential. okay.. interact camp tmr. strangely im looking forward to it. at the very least there's aunty suzy.

and talentime was qt nice. esp. the guy who sang the chinese song.. haha. watched it with addie and we both thot he deserved double 9s. but he got lesser than tt i tink.. shucks
and good luck for M'sia Open addie, box. and gang!!

2006-02-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

the week has been littered with sleepless nights here and there. mebbe i havent really compensated for the fatigue after sunday's competition. but itz the end of the week. tho i probably wont be getting much rest.. with interact induction camp this weekend.. so probably staying overnight. anw.. i juz found the miracle cure. Drink wine (esp cabarnet). itz helping me to conk out at juz the right moments.. like arnd now..

2006-02-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

happy vday and friendship week!!

itz been a really cool day. haha.. i juz love seeing a sea of red. red is a nice colour. at least there's more life in school, albeit juz for today. but anw.. thanks loads trier, addie, W, R etc.. u guys (gals) are real sweet. =)

anw.. trng was qt relaxed. i juz changed out altho i diden really haf the intention to fence. everytime there's a competition itz a full day of activity. and injuries compounded by injuries. in the end, itz like a whole collection of injured body parts. (heel pain, quad aches, lower back strain etc) yada yada.

saw the teams for team competition. haha.. together with zhengyi, alvin and changhong. we'll see how it goes =)

and there's interact induction camp this weekend. which coincidentally is my sis' bdae. oh well.. duty calls. but will try to figure sth out.. she only gets to be 20 once.

2006-02-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

thot that fencing trng today wld haf loads of wet fencing coz of U20s. but mark went with wad his russian coach told him.. basically tt too much fencing kills ur drive b4 a competition. so the hungrier u are, the better u fence. or tts the gist of it, excluding the halting russian. oh and juz realised tt mark scored like 1550 + in the old SATs. damn pro... hahaz.. reminds me of wad it takes to enter med sch like him.

so the sabreurs played capt's ball while the foilists went electric. it was real fun. our side kept switching formations.. first with nic as capt den box den michelle coz the other side was really fast. After the whole round was over, mark relented and let us fence. but jean and mich wanted to play slapjack to warm down so everyone juz acquiesed. haha.. slapjack is fun! esp if u play with ppl like nic who screams at such high frequencies. but addie and nic had the most cards at the end.. haha.

finally got to fence later. but only two 15-pt bouts. juz for the fluidity, as least we dont get to kill ourselves. i tink i made the correct choice by wearing two layers of sock. it really dulls the impact during lunges. so at least the callus on my left foot wont get worse. itz like turning yellow and green and wadever.

okay.. damn shagged now. now since trng has shifted to fri.. theres pe and fencing one after the other. but itz good physical trng lah.. so cant complain.

2006-02-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

can't believe i was stupid enough to haf lost jon tay's body lead. sigh.. and there's U-20s this sunday. so guess i will haf to buy a replacement. damn.. 55 bucks -_-

got a surprise call from j. chong today. haha.. was in the midst of cca when she suddenly called, asking 4 a favour. anw, was supposed to meet mingren at queensway shopping centre after cca. den kept him waiting there for like 45mins after he came from alexandra hospital. sorry!! diden tink i wld end so late. but there's always ms lim's homewk to do =P

poor chap, he has some arm injury brought abt by overuse of his arm plus due to his height. but at least he had a somewhat 'pleasant' experience of being exposed to an old nurse.

hahaz.. juz coz urs are levi's isnt a good reason to show off =P.

but really spent a shit load today. was hunting for a pair of shoes, esp since my last pair got stolen. and mingren was looking for one too and a pair of sneakers. spent qt some time deciding on whether his sneakers shd haf a silver sign or a brown sign. anw.. we bought tina's bdae present, which was split among the 7evens. and den i had to get my sis' bdae present which cost like 100 plus bucks. fortunately rui was sharing. spent like 2 hrs there b4 finally finished. den had to go out agn. so im juz back.. tired.

anw.. heard from rui after BOD meeting tt interact camp is next wk. which coincidentally falls on my sis' bdae.

but of course, teachers can be such grapevines. ms koh, citing reliable sources, tinks that im attached. and tt she noes for a fact some j1s joined coz of rui. haha.. shall enjoy scaring them during camp.

2006-02-07T18:55:00.000+08:00

rei hitting me with a condom soft toy

2006-02-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

it must haf been the soft toy. i woke up to see my left eye swollen in the mirror. like i got punched while i was sleeping. so i took the day off in case itz a viral infection. and itz kinda good to haf a break smack in the middle of the week, esp. when there's no one at home but me.

so i had some time to watch some tennis, and an episode of one tree hill. im really backdated, in school work and in social life. im still watching the aussie open even tho it has ended like a week ago.

but of course, managed to catch up on work. tho today was actually not a very good day to miss school. so tt means i still haf some stuff to catch up on. apart from pe i nthe morn, i missed math tut, math lec, bio pract and fencing trng. there's still U-20s challenge this sunday. not tt there will be alot of stress on this one, i mean itz more for exposure and all, given tt we arent really supposed to compete in this category. tho the girls will haf a much better time since the U20 field for them isnt tt daunting.

not to mention this saturday cld haf another CA competition at NTU, pending the prelim results. tho i feel tt the other team probably has a much betta chance than mine. but we'll see.

and today went for a run in an attempt to get myself back in shape. and of course, running is qt therapeutic when ure alone on the hilltop. thinking abt stuff has helped me sort out some matters. one of which is tt sometimes, i feel like im being taken for granted. and itz becoming a real pain. i can live with tt, tho i dont necessarily enjoy it. itz the feeling of hitting a tennis ball agnst the wall, where u try so hard but only hard blows come back. there is hardly any favourable response. and after a while, things come to a head. after some time, this juz exceeds my tolerance lvl.

2006-02-05T18:51:00.000+08:00

enjoyed myself qt a bit today. glad i went for this og outing. had the ntu challenge prelim round at njc yesterday. so wanted to stay home to catch up on work. den daph told me she was gng too.. so oh well.. itz still cny anw.

but chunky looks different now. but tts wad we will all look like next year when we enter the army. told us qt alot of stuff abt wad life is like in the army. and thankfully, it isnt as tough as itz made out to be. and itz really cool tt he came despite having to book in at 7.. so as im writing this.. he's probably in camp alr. tink he has live grenade exercise tmr.

and grace is working now. hahaz.. tho she told me sth really hilarious.. she and chunky both being from fencing themselves. never thought that wld haf been possible =/

but anw.. we had lunch at cartel. hanyang and i went to pay the bill, and ended up with extra money. haha.. den went to kpool to play. teamed up with hanyang agnst grace and daphne after zhiyi left. they are really good =) saw francis chong with his wife or gf there at the table beside ours =/.

after that daphne went to help me choose my sis' bdae present. but unfortunately, all the stores diden sell it at taka and wisma. die lah. now i really dunno wad to get 4 her alr. muz go hunt arnd when i haf the time

anw.. the triplets are here now. and they are frightfully irritating. no wonder i never liked kids. they came over and starting banging on my laptop till i had to forcibly extricate them. so now im in my room and stuffed them with my sister who's teaching them to play the piano. bah

2006-02-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

itz really funny why the female cleaners outnumber the male cleaners by such a large margin. and itz no joke to be out in the urinal and haf a female cleaner juz walk in to clean the mirrors -.-

and aunt adeline came to visit today. got a shock when i got back to see tt she was sitting on the couch at home. haha.. she's one of the few ppl who always see me as in my much younger years. she still has the habit of calling me by like how she used to 10years ago, and keeps going on with her hugs. dunno how she still does it now tt im a head taller than her..

anw.. thanks T for the cny prez.. itz sweet.. in more ways than one =)

2006-02-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

teaming up with addie at kpool

2006-01-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

look at the no. of dried roses... romantic huh

2006-01-31T23:14:00.000+08:00

s03h family. check out the 4 sons

2006-01-31T23:12:00.000+08:00

at k pool with addie

2006-01-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

me, mingren, rui

2006-01-31T23:09:00.000+08:00

trevor excited!

2006-01-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

memoirs of a geisha is so cool!! thanks to addie for watching it a second time w me.. and reuben for making the cinema look like his living room ^^. but gong li is really chio. i mean.. shes a bitch and all.. but who cares. although shows nowadays are getting longer and longer. king kong was a 3hr stretch.. and this is 2hr plus. not tt im complaining since im getting my money's worth. but the theatre is freezing.

den we went k-pooling later on. haha.. it was addie's first time but she sunk a few balls. not bad. but it was freakin ex and i guess the cold got to us. haha.. the first few shots we were juz knocking balls arnd without actually sinking any.

den went to auntie yeo's hse later. hahaz.. mingren, rui, trev and i were so lazy we juz tumpang addie's car so neva go with the class. but auntie yeo is really hospitable. she prepared all the finger foods to eat, juz tt we never got arnd to finishing it off. and mr tan came too. in pink!! haha.. is that the new 'in' colour or wad.

and trevor cheats during blackjack. wah piang. i drew an ace and ten and he diden pay!! haha..den later the four of us went back to the city. reuben was still there so we got him to meet us. mingren and us went swensens to eat an earthquake while waiting.

okay.. im officially on my eating regimen agn from tmr onwards. eating is the greatest sin. den went to pool agn at paradiz. haha.. mingren is qt pro k. haha.. but it wasnt too bad. we upgraded from 7ft to 8ft to 9ft. okay. damn tired now. sch starts tmr.

2006-01-30T09:56:00.000+08:00

im so happy to be able to sit here and blog. hardly slept alot the last two days. had the disgustng SATs on the eve. so came back.. slept and had reunion dinner. den my sister went to open a bottle of cabernet merlot while we were playing blackjack. in the end she decided she diden want it. and rui refused to help. so i shared the bottle with my dad. it was qt smooth actually.. thot that the apple cider we had earlier was like all alcohol and no apple. but anw.. after tt i got high and cldnt sleep.

and ytd was another 'around singapore' tour again. my mom's side has like a whole lot of relatives. turns out that my first grand-aunt has like 8 kids, the second has 10, and the fourth has 6. so you do the math.. finished visting at arnd 1140pm.

but ytd was evin's bdae as well. so bought a swensen's ice-cream cake 4 him before we went there. and evin kept plying the guys with beer. so now im going to stop drinking for 2 days. heh..

anw.. i still havent watched memoirs of a geisha.. who wants to watch?

2006-01-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

today's the eve of the eve of CNY. and i wld haf been more excited if there hadnt been SATs tomorrow. haha. but the trip back to ri was again, qt entertaining and the familiar faces were such a welcomed sight..

went back with hulin, reuben, rui and aloy (who dissipated somewhere later on) to see the teachers. diden get to see chong coz i heard she had to catch a flight or sth. but it was good to talk to mrs tay, ms tan and mrs smith. esp the latter who had alot to say.. but guess i really shd enjoy the moment. coz we probably wont be gng back to ri very frequently once we graduate.. and even if we do. it wld be a different ri we are returning to.. as it is the hall is being torn down.. a new building is going up.

but i guess the memories wld still be there. coz if theres one part of the education system tt i loved most.. it wld haf been the 4 years in ri. but anw.. CNY is here. so itz a good time to gorge.. as rui has over-adequately shown by eating hulin's oranges in the bus. and itz a time for respite as well.. haf a great time everyone!

2006-01-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

pe trials today. im realli out of shape now. quads aching like hell after 2.4km. the most ludicrous thing was tt giri was planning to pace me.. but halfway through i dropped out to tie shoelaces.. and lost momentum after tt. timing is so lousy now. anw.. tink tt thur's shd be a rest day coz no fencing due to novices. so tt shd give me a few day's rest to finally get cny clothes and all.. not to mention a good recovery period.

anw.. mingren came down for fencing clinic today. damn difficult to suit him up. so damn big. and everything juz is so tight on him. hahaz.. had to reach under his jacket to pull out the body leads and all juz to connect him. but not bad for a first-timer.. his reach is definitely a plus point.. tho diden get a chance to play him.

and was pleasantly surprised when addie passed me an Aussie Open tape featuring.. Martina Hingis!! woah. my former favourite player. hahaz.. apparently she has qt a fan base too.. ppl like mingren and all support her. watched abit of her match tonight. she doesnt haf the power that serena has. but her court craft is juz so so good...

wad visual entertainment..

2006-01-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

rjc fencing (most) plus sabre coach david